im all grown up

heehee. fooled you with the title. hellll no am i all grown up. am i trying to act more like it? maybe a little. there's been a complete shift in my life in the past year and i gotta say, it's good for me. gone are the days of crown guzzling blackout nation. now are the days of beer and gin and tonic blackout nation. that sentence is so grammatically incorrect. i moved out, i have a new punching bag aka boy in my life, and a new job. i love the boy, hate the job. sales is so not glamorous. not that i feel like i should have some sort of rockstar razzle dazzle lifestyle, but i would at least like to spend a third of my life doing something i feel is worthwhile. but that's a whole different blog....


it's been a while since i blogged. almost a year? no, about a year. someone who was never supposed to read my  blogs and went ahead and did it anyway when i expressly asked them not to made a comment to me about my blogging. said it was kind of trashy and not classy and below their standards of what they perceived i was capable of writing. my answer to this is as follows. when the fuck did i say i was trying to recreate hamlet or some sort of literary masterpiece???? it's called a BLOG because its pretty much verbal diarrhea from my big beautiful brain. don't like it? don't effing read it. gauge out your eyes for all i care.

i read over some of my old xanga entries and blogs and almost died. i'm FUNNY. yeah i'm complimenting myself. i might just repost some of my xanga stuff on here for a while until my creative juices start flowing again. my genius brain has been laying dormant for a little while.

what the fuck is taking this surgery so long???? im waiting at the hospital for my dad's surgery that was supposed to be over an hour ago. let me give you a tip doctor. if you say 3, then be done by 3 please. nobody likes their anxiety and stress levels to be peaked for any longer than necessary.

stress mental block. ill be back.