damn time flies...

i haven't blogged in almost a year. i looked at my profile, and i listed myself as "alcoholic, smokes too much, unemployed beksoo". The only thing that has changed from that is the alcoholic part. i like to think of myself as a recovering alcoholic. i know, i'm so proud of myself. *curtsy*

so why the fuck am i still unemployed? jesus. i gave up a job in korea because i couldn't quite make myself go, and the feeling of being torn made me decide to stay. but it's only a phone call away...so i'll think of it as my back up plan. i had coffee with the bestie aka my queen aka hanna na, and she asked me," if i was to move out of state, would you come with me?" to which i replied without hesitation, "yes." because that's what life is supposed to be like right? well, that's how i've always wanted to live my life. the whole stability thing, the family and the husband and the 2.5 kids and the white picket fence works out great for the majority of pretty much everyone else, but it's not for me. i want to travel. i want to see everything. i want to meet people. i want to drag hanna from city to city, country to country, all over the world and make a video blog of everything and have our own youtube channel and then have the travel channel pick us up for our own show because we are THAT funny and fabulous and awesome to watch. i want to write a best selling novel. i want to bang hot cabana boys in exotic countries. i want to live free and unfettered and unconventionally. i'm 27, i'll be 28. i was worried that i'm getting too old, that time was passing me by too quickly, what have i been doing with my LIFE?? but when i think of all the things i want to do from this point on, i feel like my life is just beginning. you are never to old to learn something new, to rediscover yourself, to find your own niche doing something you love. for me, it begins now. and one year from now, my profile will read something different. like, "nomad adventurer brilliant travel writer sex icon" or something along those lines. and hopefully i'll have banged anthony bourdain by then.